So my blog has been grossly neglected in the past 6 months. One of the reasons I must say is due to the lack of progress in our infertility journey. My dear husband was offshore from Thanksgiving until the end of April and as we all know with the lack of a man there is no chance of "preggo the eggo".What a long 5 months that was! several of my friends announced they were expecting and every time my jealousy crawled out a little bit more. Was my chance ever going to come? Is my fertility story now written in concrete? Am I not going to have the big family I have always dreamed of? Am I going to grow old with only one son coming to dinners during the holidays? Or even worst, am I failing as a wife for not being able to carry our gifts from God? All these thoughts plague me every single day, and even though I am doing the best to hide my feelings they tend to come pouring out at nighttime when the house is completely quiet.
But I am happy to say that our swimmers bank is all filled up with enough for 3 IUIs. I had to drag him kicking and screaming only a few days after he came back home to ensure that we had a backup in case he left before we had a chance to "Baby Dance". ;) Not that he did not want to make any deposits, but who really looks forward to sitting in a strange room doing the most private act known to a man? I think I would have failed miserably!
My dear diver man was home for 3 weeks, and all looked good until my body refused to work with us and AF never showed up. I was so frustrated, sad and angry all at the same time. I went to see my doctor at Shady Grove Fertility center and they did a sonogram, and blood work to check my hormone levels. The answers was not what I was looking for; I was told that my lining was triple thick, I had a cyst on my left ovary, it basically looked like I had not had a period for about 3-4 months. Bummer scalore!!!!
I was given Progesterone to bring on my AF, which did not work. And once again I had to go in for a scan and blood work. This time it showed that I was about to ovulate and was told to go home and "get it on" with my husband. (too bad he was not home). Talk about bad timing once AGAIN, and due to circumstances the IUI was not an option for this cycle. Oh well I though... At least I have little swimmers frozen for the next cycle. 12 days later AF FINALLY came to visit and I was actually happy about all the painful cramping, craving of chocolate and my moodiness as I knew I was one step closer to an IUI.
Day 4 of my cycle (yesterday) at 7am I drove the one hour drive to my local Shady Grove office and went in for my baseline scan and blood work and everything looked PERFECT. I was not pregnant (which would be a true miracle since my husband has been offshore for over a month now), and I got the go ahead to start my 5 day course of Clomid. YAAAY One step closer to my dream of becoming a mom again.
The next step is to go back to Shady Grove Fertility Center for my 12 day scan and blood work to see if I have any good sized follicles to trigger for ovulation. So I am praying to every God out there in the universe and crossing my fingers that this cycle will be it for me even thought I am expecting to do at least 3-4 more cycles.
So send some 17-19mm follicles dust my way and pray with me :)
Happy June for everyone out there
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