Beta Testing Day after my very first IUI

Today was the big Beta testing day after my first round with IUI. I got up early and drove the fun one hour drive to Shady Grove. Blood was drawn and then I went on my way. I knew I would receive a phone call around 2pm with the answer, and I must say I was not looking forward to the call. I am one of these people who are very in-tuned to my body and I knew my test results would be negative. I have had no implantation bleeding, no frequent urination, no tender breasts and the preggo feeling was not there.

These past two weeks have been very long for me, and I need a better plan for next time. The good thing is that my dear husband will actually be home in a few weeks and help me thru the 2WW, and knowing that makes our next step feel better. The hard part today was the phone call from my sweet contact nurse Chris. She did not sugarcoat the results and said she did not have good news. The test results where 0 HCG and its time to plan for the next cycle. She is by far the best nurse I have ever had the privilege to have on my team and her sincere caring really made me feel better.

Then the email to my husband who was waiting on pins and needles somewhere offshore of Brunei. The email was probably the hardest one I have written in a very long time. How do you tell your husband over email that he is not going to be a father this month? The only way I knew how was to keep it short and sweet with a little bit of; We can do this! ending. These are days I hate his job! It would be so much easier to pick up the phone. 

The plan will be to continue with the same protocol as I last cycle since my body responded well and matured 4 follicles. Cycle day 3 I will have a scan to see if things looks good, if its a go I will take 50mg of Clomid during cycle day 3-7. Day 12 I am back in for a scan to count the follicles. Depends on the follicle growth when I will trigger, but I will use the same as this month 250 of Ovridel. Then Promitrium from the day after IUI until test day. (or longer if I get a BFP) What will be different this time around is that my lover boy will be home for a fresh IUI so that gives me more hope that this next cycle will go better.

Where did I think things went wrong?
I really believe I ovulated too late. I triggered on Thursday and had a frozen IUI the following Friday and Saturday. On Sunday night into Monday morning I felt the ovulation cramping and I kinda knew at that point the cycle was over for me. Even though my husbands sperm count was way above normal, it was frozen and with frozen sperm they live for up to 5 days in utero but they loose their motility after 24 hours. I tend to think that you need to be able to swim and move in order to meet that illusive egg. So for my next cycle I am so glad about the fact that my husband will be home and give us the chance with a fresh sperm IUI cycle and if I ovulate late again, its an easy fix ;)

So tonight after my son goes to bed i will allow myself a glass of wine and a good cry, then I will brush myself off and try again. I will not give up as I know God is just waiting for the perfect chance to give us a new miracle or maybe even 2.

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