9 months later our precocious little boy was born, and we wanted more babies fast. How did we not know about this secret parent love? We wanted to start trying again when our boy was 6 months. The time came and we started trying and trying and trying. We knew that it takes at least a year of trying before getting preggers, and with my husband being and offshore diver he was not home for every egg drop. A year went by and still nothing. Then another year went by and still nothing. One day my period did not come and I got super excited! I went out bought a test and it was negative. hmmmm strange. I must be pregnant since I don't have my period was my thinking, but after about 5 tests I was still not pregnant. I started feeling a pain in one of my ovaries and called the doctor. Since my period had been missing for about 3 months they did an ultrasound and there it was.... Not a baby, but one long string of pearls on each ovary and after asking me all the classic questions to which I answered yes to all of them I got diagnosed with PCOS. I had not dropped an egg since I got pregnant with my baby. I was so sad, but happy to get an answer as to why we have not been able to get pregnant. I was started on Metformin, told to go an a PCOS diet, and start taking large doses of Folic Acid. I followed my doctors advice and 3 months later I dropped my first egg and we got preggers! A month later we unfortunately miscarried. But now I knew: We can get pregnant again so all we need to do is the perfect timing.
With a husband offshore 6+ months a year it is not easy to do the deed when needed, but we did not give up. October 2010 we got pregnant AGAIN! This was the best birthday and xmas gift ever. I was being so careful, I ate right, took all my meds, exercised and rested. I got my first ultrasound in beginning of December and was told the fetus was a little small for the gestational age. Was told to come back in 2 weeks to check again. So I did. Same answer, baby had a heartbeat, but it was small maybe even stopped growing. But since there was a heartbeat I needed to come back 2 weeks later. My husband came back from work the day before my ultrasound and I felt very restless. I knew something was wrong, but did not know what. We went to the appointment and after a 30 minute long searching, measuring and listening they told me the fetus had lost its heartbeat and most likely stopped growing 5 days ago. Every sound that came out of the doctors mouth was just a loud mess for noises. My husband had to take over for me when it was time to ask questions. It is all a blur but at the same time I can remember every little detail by sound and smell like it happened last night. I had lost my baby at 13 weeks. The baby I have waited 2 years for. The baby who was going to be one child closer to complete our family. My world was shattered. I don't remember much of the next few weeks, which is sad since it was the first Christmas my husband was going to spent with his 3 year old boy. We had a huge friend dinner in Christmas day and I was a walking ghost. I had to have a D&C right before the new year.
After that miscarriage my husband worked for 4 months straight and it kinda made things better for me since there was no chance of getting pregnant. But the day came when it was time to try again and in May I once again got pregnant. I was more scared than happy, but I allowed myself the small hope that this could be it. Surely I cannot miscarry 3 times in a row. That is a death sentence for me. And the miscarriage came.... My new doctor told me he has a feeling there is more going on besides the PCOS due to all the miscarriages. NO SHIT Sherlock! I went for the blood workup and waited 2 long weeks to get results.
Protein S antigen and hetero MTHFR Mutation A1298C. WTF is all these big words? I spent days researching and in a nutshell it meant that I clot my blood too fast, especially small newly formed blood vessels forming early in pregnancy. No wonder I kept miscarrying! I got angry at my old OB for not even taking the time to test me. But now we have some answers. The new doctor and I have a plan to start Progersterone and Lovenox from the moment of the next positive pregnancy test.
Again, with a husband offshore it is not easy to get pregnant again. We have not had good luck in the egg drop\timing department. So with all the odds against us we have decided to go to Shady Grove Fertility Clinic to look into IUI. This way we have more than a few tries a year and the beginning of any pregnancy will be very closely monitored. Hopefully this next year will give us what we truly have wanted for the past 4 years, another baby. We can only pray and hope for answers.
This blog will follow me thru my new journey into infertility land.
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